One thirteen am.

I've been busy with my own projects.

I've been booked for a few jobs but they're all in December. (Whoopee!) So yeah, I've about two weeks more stoning till I have something to do.

All this free time makes me a really healthy person, I've been getting thirteen hours of sleep, I have lots of time so I've taking good care of my skin, vitamins, tablets, bio-oil, I hang around my mom's shop lots so I've been drinking lots and lots of organic juice. (Order a passion fruit, papaya and apple mix! Yummy and nutritious!)

Things I've been up to this week...



1. Set up the Christmas tree.

I realized when I was in Midvalley and all the decorations were up. I got home and lugged the tree out of the store. We got this tree last last year, I sort of fought to get the biggest tree, but now its my respondsibility to set it up every year and the bristles can really make you itch!

2. Sent Angel for grooming.

Doesn't she look adorable? Like a baby fox.
I love the way she smells after grooming- like a baby; She comes back really really clean, toenails cut, clean paws and skin. Grooming IS expensive but so very worth it!

3. Painting

I'm not the best with water colors but I try.

I'm really much more into sketching. But I've been painting some really adorable stuff for Christmas gift tags, I'm not posting them up of course. You guys are going to have to wait till Christmas!

4. Sewing

We've got this new sewing machine thats digitalized~

Its such a change from our old one. That big rusty thing that constantly smells like petroleum, the really loud roar whenever you're sewing, its alright short term, but after a while it kinda gets on your nerves.

Our new sewing machine? Awesome. It sews all kinds of fancy stitches, I bet it can even turn into a helicopter if I bother to read through the thick-as-a-dictionary manual~

Look at all the fancy stitching!



The crocodile stitch! They sure don't teach that in home economics. =/



It can even stitch your name, all you have to do is key in the alphabets!

Sewing my new high waisted plaid skirt~



Haha. Super fail camwhorers. We were both standing on the dining chairs.



Modelling the skirt~ Don't ask about the tiget on the table.

Don't be too impressed. I think my mother burst a vein trying to teach me.

I accidentally sewed the skirt shut two times and had to open the stitches slowly. The hemming at the bottom is a little wonky too, but it'll be fine if no one pays too much attention. Haha. I told Evonne I'd make her one and she gave me this smirkish smile, which really means "HELL NO!"

My midnight snack. Because Alvin won't let me kidnap him~

I just finished Stephen Kings book.

His books always leave me a little weirded out. I think its the fonts; do you know when you're silently reading to yourself? There's always this narration going on steadily in your head. When I hit certain font types that voice turns into this irregular scream, if anyone has ever read "Hearts in Atlantis" you'd know which part I'm talking about.

"CALL HOusitonic 5-8337
(OR)
BRING to THE PENN GRILLE!
Ask for THE LOW MEN IN THE YELLOW COATS!
Motto: We eat it RARE!"

I don't think its the caps because I don't get that with lala people. Just this. Weird...

PS: I graduated Foundation in Mass Communications with a 3.38 gpa! Mom is utterly unimpressed but she's too used to her other straight A scoring children. I for one, am very satisfied with my results. =)

4th Flyniversary

Because I promised.

I was one of the crazies in the mosh pit during the 4th Flyniversary. Gloria is the hugest fan of Bunkface ever! And she was always the one to put up with all my crazy celebrity obsessions, so I figured I owed her.

Shila!

It was very rough in the mosh pit with all the idiots dancing like everyone else didn't exist, this malay dude sort of elbowed me backwards and this other guy got pissed and went and punched him. I got out of there as soon as I could, both arms clinging to Eugene.

Gloria and Kevin fought their way to the very front. I gave up halfway and clutched the side barriers. It was raining and raining and the energy was insane, everyone was deliriously happy. I was just there to wait for Bunkface. Really.

We gave up on the umbrella for the second part of the show.



Shopping ventures during the break.



Bunkface came out last. Murphys Law. FML.



Hunnymadu! She looks like Ambers sister. =/



Drenched and deliriously so...



Gloria is happy~



Gloria in my new vintage-y sunnies. I like!

Currently reading~

"Is your skin as tanned as mine?
Does your hair flow sideways?
Did someone took a portion of your heart?
And im learning you..."
-Yuna, Deeper Conversation.
Caught her performing it live. Beautiful.

PS: My college mates are having fun in Terengganu. =C How I wish I was anywhere but here....

Braceface.

I haven't blogged in so long. You must think I'm dead.

No. I haven't been dead busy, just plain reluctant and lazy to come online. I was eliminated from the Ford Supermodel of the Year search, because of my braces. I had problems for a long time with them, it was very frustrating on my part because they'd want my mouth closed, but I couldn't without the strain showing on my photos, I couldn't smile because then they'd see the braces.

Taken with my phone's camera, photo shoot in front of Starhill.

Amber and the other judges kept telling me to look as though there was nothing in my mouth, but I couldn't, there IS something in my mouth. Stupid braces. I was freakishly upset when I got eliminated, especially after everything, from the controversial Malaysian Supermodel Search to this.

However, I can't stress on how fun an experience this is. I really missed it after I got eliminated. The hair and makeup, the cool things we got to do, famous photographers taking our photos, celebrities we hung out with on a daily basis. =/

Other models on standby...

PS: I've lost my juice to blog. Will update on BUNKFACE live when I've the time... or mood...

Ford Supermodel of the World Search- Malaysia: Top 30 Elimination

Yeah. So I went back and tried out again for Ford Supermodel of the World.

Its pretty demoralizing when you really thought you've made it to the top 10 girls then you get pulled back down to nothing again. But that was nothing, that was my pre-reality show grooming X), now I feel more confident, more natural in front of the camera, I try not to get flustered a lot but it still happens every now and then. Practice makes perfect~ :)

Our new host Daphne Iking and me. She speaks english beautifully and is really friendly too!

The competition seems pretty steep, I find that there is a slim chance of me getting into top ten. When we were lining up, all these big names and already established models were coming in. The girls from the Padini ads, the girls that you see on makeup boxes, where I used to be tallest now I shouldn't even show my face. XD But its alright, Malaysia deserves someone really top to win this thing, we shouldn't send out a completely inexperienced newbie.

I got back into the Top 30 and shooting starts Tuesday. Our first episode airs November 16 and its going to be an ONLINE reality show! Only the grand finale will be on Starworld, so join the fanclub! Follow them on twitter! From what Amber told me, this is going to be big!

Click here for the official website where our webisodes will come out!

Christina, Daphne Iking and me. I tried fixing the color but I effed it up even more! X(



Ukay and Jazz who both got into the mens top 30 as well!



Me, Sien and Kelly~

Went to support my brother in his concert last week! Micheal Jackson! I thought Ethan was the tallest most goodlooking there, but I'll never let him know. XD

"I'd still be blogging;
Even if my total readership consists of a fifty year old man in Moscow with his hands in his pants."
- My retort to the very classy remark of "Nobody cares what you blog about anyway!"

PS: All photo credits to Christina Lim! Who is a mad shopaholic, even I am a little afraid at times. XD

PPS: Am waiting on a laptop, just want to play the Sims so badddddddd.

Positive Power People

I haven't been sleeping in my room for days.
I initiated a total wardrobe throw out- Its gotten to this point where I can't open my wardrobe doors without having a mini clothing avalanche.

Walk in closet vomiting clothing.

So my room is completely uninhabitable for now. I've also been cleaning out other stuff like books and accessories. I feel like changing the layout of my room, I feel so bored whenever I enter it. I'm not a fan of consistency, I've changed the layout of my room 3 - 4 times this year already. I get bored of my living space fast.

I want to add more purple, I'm thinking a purple and black combination, more paintings, re-doing my whole closet- which looks really bad, I should take photos of the inside of my closet for once and let you all see where I've been hiding during thunderstorms in the middle of the night.

I wanted to wait til everyone uploaded their photos but since it looks like its not going to happen, I'm just going to go ahead.

Gloomy, gloomy day.

I'm finished with my finals and basically college life. Why does it feel like the world is spinning faster than I can walk? One minute I'm graduating kinder garden, the next I'm having to chose what degree to take for university. I dread the ticking clock, its this thing I'm constantly aware of, the dreaded sound of my life ticking away.

My classmates are the most awesome people ever. The year started off sour I admit, I felt a bit alienated, like there was this barrier dividing the class in two- me and five other foreigners/outcasts on one side , everyone else on the other side. I remember thinking that I wasn't going to be able to build the same rapport with them as I did with my highschool friends.

I know what the girls thought of me, I could see them rolling their eyes. Its something to do with my wearing high heels, something to do with my clothing, or the way I speak. "Bimbo", "Bitch", "Stuck up" I've heard all of them, people tend to assume things about me. Its weird because I'm completely the opposite of how I look, I'm crazy, I'm loud, I'm awkward, I say things that are completely off all the time. You're intimidated by me? I'm ten times more intimidated by you!

Waiting for the last test to start.

But then things started to change, I think they started to listen to what I was saying instead of focusing on how I looked. I've had the happiest time this past few months, this time period where I was 100% happy and contented with life, a large part due to this awesome energy we had.

I see a change in my diaries, where I'd write only in anger or sorrow, but there's a whole chapter of utter gratefulness and appreciation for life. Thank you guys, so much!

The awesome girls.



Bullying Mark. Amber was posing for another camera. Lol.



The people in Wei Wens head.



I'm his Evil concience. XD



Who would have thought I would have ended the year with hair shorter than Philip? XD



Camwhoring with Becky and Jasmine who won't take the lollipop out of her mouth!

My garden is full of beautiful photo opportunities. =)

"To our woman of women: people judge others by their appearances, but you are the very few who can prove others that they are SO wrong to stereotype you. even though i never told you, but i admire you a great deal. when you put your head into it, you hang on and pull through till the end. to hell with people who look down on you, because i believe that you will become someone really famous one day. : ) in one word: DETERMINATION."
- Something a friend wrote that I really do appreciate. Thank you Michelle. :)

PS: My mom lost four kg. I'm really proud of her, I believe you can really turn your life around if you just put your mind to it!

PPS: I'm getting the flu. I think I'mma go rest. Big bisous et une bonne weekend~

And behind that glass she sits. Cold. X(

3.05pm

Am blogging from the Media Hub while waiting for Smelly to come out from the exam hall.

Its pouring, like torrential rain and my pumps are soaked through. Blister. Ouch. Ouch. Don't you hate when that happens? Plus you end up with pale dead looking feet when you get home that looks so gross you don't even want them attached to your legs. Ugh.

Haha. Birthday gift I made for someone. Completely hand drawn, why last time I so rajin?

3.09pm

Brrrr. Is freezing cold in the Media Hub. Why won't Smelly hurry up? Fingers are frozen solid to keyboard. I blatantly refuse to study social psychology! SO THERE!

3.18pm

I am studying social psychology. Wtf. =.="

3.22pm

I've decided four minutes of studying social psychology is more than enough for my mental health. I am currently working on my french essay which I need to pass up tomorrow. I'm constantly forgetting to do my work and Mr. Celio might get upset. And when he does, I get flustered and call him sir lots. Which makes him madder. "Stop calling me sir!"

"Yes sir. Sorry sir." T.T

Me and Angel last last Christmas! Before braces. =/

3.30pm

Okay. Feet are like blocks of ice. Took off shoes and tucked them under me. Guy next to me has awesome tattoo.

3.34pm

Hurrah! Smelly just texted! I have to meet her up front! Bye blog!

I HAVE to share this! His best video yet! Mika is pure genius. As always.

"This ordinairy mind is broken;

You did it and you don't even know."

PS: Plus. Mika is NOT GAY you homophobic gay bashers! He's sexually liberal, which is bi-sexual. SO THERE!

PPS: Oh yes. And somehow all the HQ versions of this vid could not be embedded so click here for better quality vids!

Pick up off the floor...

I feel like kicking people in the nuts when they tell me they are tired.
"Why are you tired?"
"I partied all night till 7am this morning."
=.="

I just finished all my obligatory work for Niesha's dad, I was editing videos for him. I've got a cheque waiting at YNN for me, my 3 digit Nuffnang cheque that I've waited forever before finally deciding to cash out, I got paid for my fashion show and the money from the flowers I received during the pageant just came in. Weehee~

With all the models backstage- So I didn't go to prom, but I got to wear the most fabulous gowns and get paid for it!

I've also got to pay Kevin because he helped me a lot with my voice recordings and I also want to return the money I used when I first got into MSS and I went crazy buying clothes. My mom always said to give her my first cheque, but I've tried and tried to give her the money I earn but she always says to wait for a bigger cheque. Haha. I think she wants to hold out till I hit five digits.

Money makes me feel secure; I've this need to constantly have credit in my phone, money in my Touch and Go, my gas tank full and money in my pocket. I always feel like if anything were to happen to me- like an accident, or if my car died on the road. I'd still be safe.

Evonne, me and Angeline during dress fitting.

I'm now saving up to buy unit trusts for the future. I told my mom I'd rather die than be poor and she suggested that I invest in those. I think its very important to be smart with your money, too many girls are saving up like mad to buy LV bags.

I don't look down on these girls, if you feel like its important to you, go ahead. I'm also saving up for luxuries like a better camera and laptop, but handbags are just not my choice. Maybe it benefits you, like with your self-esteem and status. I'd still respect that, I know how it hurts when you work so hard to buy something you really wanted and people scoff at you.

Unposted photos



Eating after hair and makeup. The stylist curled my hair, I love it, looks so classy.



Me and the girls, I kept hinting that I wanted the princess gown but they kept saying "Put the tall one in the mermaid dress." =C



I had the sluttiest cheongsam too~ But I like it!



I wanna buy a Qi Bao now~



I feel the need to explain my inflated chest as I'm usually a flattie- I was wearing a push up, the dress had padding too. Haha. Juanita would be proud.

From last weeks press conference...

Model pose~ I don't know why people like to put their fingers in front of my lens. =/



I think the makeovers they gave us really helped distinguish us and bring out our faces.



Haha. I don't know why Wilson constantly looks like he wants to hump someone~

Car has upgraded into moving shoe closet. =X

"Motionless remains the mess,
Shame. Such a beautiful beautiful young life."

PS: My left hand is covered in an assortment of lipstick shades as I got bored when I was waiting for my maid to get her stuff in Watsons. Now I'm thinking of the number of germs on a tester lipstick.

PPS: Gotta study badly. Bye!

45 minutes and counting...

Ouch. I accidentally hooked the side of my cheek in when I was trying to put on my retainers. Now its bleeding and I have an ulcer to look forward to. (Joy!)

I have barely 45 minutes to update my blog, I've a fashion show and I have to leave at one thirty. Today was the last day of class, but I was in such a rush I couldn't even say goodbye properly- I had to pick up fake eyelashes for the show.

I've been very busy but very happy. I forgot to update you guys on the status of the show, I attended this press exclusive where we were interviewed by the papers. Apparently we have to start from scratch, meaning- send in our applications and leave it all to lady luck again. Its sad, I know but since everything is working out so beautifully- my studies being completely done by the time of the audition, I'm going all out for it.

Christina, Reena, me and Acha.

It seems to me, everytime I try and take a photo with Amber, EVERYONE tries to get in and it ends up a group photo. XD



Example 1



Example 2- Haha. I don't look too happy do I? And who's smelly finger is that?



Benjamin Tiong. He's an awesome catwalk coach, I'm so glad he's in the show still! Alien too, as our stylist!

Haha. My mom called to say I was in the papers with my old hair. I'm too lazy to search through the papers for my photos anymore.

Photographer: Girl. You have beautiful legs.
Me: Oh thank you. *inflates*
Photographer: Like a flamingo.
=.="

PS: I was at this party with all the Miss Malaysia(s) yesterday. Tinggi giler. Will post up photos! Mwa!

PPS: Yes. Yes. Will upload photos onto FB later. Don't STEAL!!!

Gemütlichkeit. =)

Some stills from the video shoot.
[Taken by the very talented YM]





My fantastic cast. =)

I think I'm a complete pain in the ass as a director.
But if I lost my Hitler-like dictatorship over the cast and crew I doubt we'd get everything done as beautifully as we had. Thank you all babies. I've been completely stressed out over the production and editing but now that its all done, tonight I look forward to a complete twelve hours of peaceful sleep. =)

I think pulling something like this together requires a lot of discipline. I had such a hard time controlling my cast I started fining them for interrupting shoots. Five bucks everytime someone held the rest of the cast up, talked too loudly, came late and asked me stupid questions- I quote: "So I press the record button to record?" Then we'd have pizza.

Filming it was crazy. There was this one day where we were supposed to shoot this garden scene but the sun was too strong and ruined the colors. We had to wait for the intervals where the sun disappeared behind the clouds. The moment the sun dimmed a little, it would be pandemonium. "Get into position! Run people!" and all of us, previously half dead from the heat standing in the shade would burst into a flurry of panic and activity.

Thank you all. Thank you for enduring my yelling, my anal obsession for detail, my crazy high expectations and all the retakes I put everyone through. Truly completely grateful for all the time you contributed to my video. I am not worthy. Haha.

Weehee. I like the hair movement.

"These two sides of my brain;
They should meet up someday.
Mental wellbeing is overrated."
- Sheena Liam at exactly 2.46am, 11 October 2008

PS: I'm supposed to meet Amber next Tuesday. She wants to update us on whats going on with the competition and where we stand. I'll update you all then. =) Give me a week to get over my finals. *Prays madly*

Coz Breast Implants made her hotter, but they didn't make her any smarter...

I've one last last assignment to finish then I'm done for my semester and my foundation course. I had the most horrendous night yesterday, came back at nine, edited my video till 2am, fell asleep on the floor, woke up at 4 and continued editing, went upstairs to sleep at 5.30am woke up at 8 which was so bloody late I gave up on going to Moral class altogether. (Then I bumped into Mr. Azizi when I was buying my CD's in college and couldn't even look him in the eye when he said hi.)

Evonne, Zanardy, Omer and me posing with our awesome chart!

I had a really bad fall yesterday. Me and Evonne were at Rachel's house editing our videos and helping her to shoot. Rachel lives in this super awesome studio apartment style bungalow and we were on this landing without railings that overlooked the first floor.

Rachel spent hours and hours setting up her set and it was super elaborate with all sorts of junk stuck onto it. But then the moment I pressed record button her whole set fell apart; I started laughing so hard I didn't notice I backed up againts the gu zheng in the middle of the room lost my balance and somersaulted over to the other side hitting my head on the landing.

Mwahahahaa. Me completely passed out on Rachel's couch. I was exhausted.

Yes. I know. A gu zheng (Chinese musical instrument) How random. I came this close to rolling off the second floor, Rachel actually thought I did fall off the landing. I was choking with laughter, then I was in pain, then the situation was so hilarious I had to laugh despite the throbbing pain.

I actually have gu zheng string burns on the back of my thigh. Ouch.

Angeline's Birthday Celebration@ Green Box



Angeline, my bestie back in highschool. She's gorgeous isn't she?



Vivian, Gloria, me, Vanessa- who has an equally gorgeous twin and Angie.



They gave us halloween masks. I'm the skull!



Edward Cullen wannabe~ XD



Lol. Its only Justin.







I love the back of my dress. This was actually a knee length dress which I hemmed short because it looked like something a teacher would wear.

"The world is microscopic.
I see it from afar..."
- Emilie Simon

PS: I'll post up video shoot photos and videos next okay? As soon as they're presented in class.