Its in my I.C but not by practice, I've always been an Atheist or an Agnostic [?] Which one is the one that believes there's a god out there but can't decide which one? Either way, I'm that one. I believe in a higher power but not a religion.
But I've been reading up on Buddhism a lot. And one of their practices is to detach, detach yourself from material goods, things, money, people [?] cause apparently thats the only way to be truly happy.
I get that, things don't last, you don't keep them after you die. People, they let you down, they change, you change, we're all in a flux, we're all in a mess, we don't know what we're doing. Then what is life for? Helping other people? Then you get attached to them and defeat everything you worked for.
I don't get the point of living sometimes. Maybe I'm secretly a nihilist, behind closed doors. Its hard to mantain a facade-talk about shallow things, stupid things that don't benefit anybody. Sometimes I feel like confronting things, situations, people I'd, in any other sane frame of mind choose to ignore.
If you hate me so much, why do you keep reading my blog? Like my feed doesn't tell me who you are. Practically everyone you bitch about me to, comes up to me and tells me what a bitch you are. But you do what you want, I'm choosing to ignore you.
I'm so detached from this kind of high-school rumor spreading, and I didn't even want to honor you with a mention. You can live your wannabe Gossip Girl life by yourself, I just want you to know, I know who you are and I know what you're saying.
And I totally don't know how a blog post that started out discussing religion ended up here. (Disgusting, I know.) But as an advice for highschool girls who read my blog, stay out of the drama, if a person had a valid problem with you they'd confront you and you could discuss it. If not, all they can do is talk behind your back.
I hence declare this space clear of petty useless things in the future.