Moleskine.

Why are Moleskins so expensive?

I. Crave.

So I pretty much have OCD for text and fonts and backgrounds and it stems from my OCD with exercise books when I was younger. I hated books with narrow lines, I always got upset halfway through and stopped doing homework altogether.

When I got to highschool I started using only widely lined notepads. At least 1cm, else I wouldn't/couldn't write. But eventually I abandoned the restrictive force of lines altogether.

People are too obsessed with neatness, straight clear writing. I have a natural ability to write in a straight line without lines, I just chose not to. Neatness is overrated, I work best in organized mess.

Notes throughout my first year in degree.

"Who in the world do you think that I am?
I guess that depends on who you believe."
- Simone White

PS: One of my best Christmas presents to date is a large black sketch book with thin cream colored paper. Cream colored paper is <3.>

CellAct: The Answer to Beautiful skin

CellAct Product Review

I don't really have a skin care regime.

Boo! We have more fun backstage than we do on the runway.

I don't have skin thats prone to acne or pimples so I take that for granted a lot. Most of the time I don't even remove my makeup and jump into bed. Unless I've been doing a show and the makeup is packed on like icing on a cupcake, then I'd go through the trouble of removing but even then, more so my pillow case won't be dirty than for the sake of my skin. :{

Me and Jen then me and Veronica. Mirrors girls ftw!

But part of my prize from Mirrors is products from CellAct. And we're talking RM3k++ worth of products, so I've been having the time and liberty of testing each and every product I got.

Fruity Fresh Hydration Set

From left:
Fruity Fresh Hydrating Gel Mask
Mango Hydrating Gel
Strawberry Nourishing Gel
Berries Astringent Toner
Apple Mousse Cleanser

The hamper I got was spot on as I think the reason I don't have pimples is because my skin is quite dry. However this line is suited to all skin types, especially teenagers.

Apple Mousse Cleanser

Although it says apple and smells delightfully like apples, according to the website it actually has cucumber fresh cells which is well known for its healing properties. Its light and foamy and doesn't dry out the skin like some cleansers do. I prefer foam cleansers because they're less harsh on the skin, at our age, I think we should be more delicate with our skin.

Berries Astringent Toner

I've never used toner my whole life. Lol. I usually don't like toners as some of them can feel quite "spicy" on the skin but not this toner. Although there was a slight tingle it receded fast and leaves you feeling fresh after. According to the box it stimulates skin cell respiration and naturally tightens the pores. This is good to use if you're tired because I can never sleep after using it. Lol. Makes me feel awake.

Mango Hydrating Gel

Now this product I really like, I always use powder foundation which can really dry out the skin. Now I always put on a layer of Mango Hydrating Gel (Which smells divine.) before applying my makeup. Helps the makeup to set and also keeps my skin from drying out.

I even gave a bottle of this to Jasmine for Christmas- but I accidentally dropped the box because I was talking on the phone and shattered the bottom. :( The perils of being Sheena.

Strawberry Nourishing Gel

Ethan Sepet Boy and my bottle of Nourishing Gel.

My 7 yr old brother loves this. Haha. After he came back from Bali he had sunburn on both cheeks from the sun and was scratching constantly so I put this on his cheeks. And again it smells sooooo good! It can go on quite sticky at first but when it dries out it doesn't leave any residue and your skin constantly feels like its been freshly washed after.

Fruity Fresh Hydrating Gel Mask

This doesn't really have any scent. Its a thick creamy mask you're supposed to apply once or twice a week, leave on for 15 - 20 minutes then wash off. I like to use this is the bath, run a bubble bath, listen to podcasts from "How Stuff Works", apply the mask and relax. Leaves skin nicely moisturized. :)

CellAct Hamper!



Inside CellAct Hamper! RM3k CellAct Voucher O.o

Thats it for my skincare review. My first too, I admit I've never heard of CellAct before Mirrors but not bad, not bad at all. I have plenty of CellAct products I've yet to redeem and I won't be able to use them all. I have doubles of everything too, so if any of you fancy trying out the products. Leave me a comment. ;)

Live fast, die young

All taken (stolen from) by Philip Rom.

I been having a bit more of a night life this week.

I can't sleep at night, it doesn't feel natural to me- as much as I love mornings. Usually I'd stone around, playing the guitar, watching TV, sketching then force myself into bed completely restless.

People are a driving force in my life.

Bailey back when she was healing from splayed legs. Aw. I miss when she fit in my palm.

"Being nice to someone you dislike doesn't mean you're a fake.
It means you are mature enough to tolerate your dislike towards them."

PS: Bali photos coming round as well as some runway backstage craziness.

Goodbye Bali.

First of all, thanks a lot for all the comments on my previous post.

Sometimes its nice to know there are still people out there reaching out. And its not just me ranting my silly self out to myself and nobody really gives half a damn about how I feel.

I've always been a writer at heart, I should embrace situations such as these. Lol. And I apologize for the lack of usual senseless quirky updates and my angsty demeanor lately.

My trip to Bali was much needed. Bali is beautiful, I just regret not having the chance to surf or do more water sports. I've this fantastic tan if you chose to ignore the horrible tan lines my bikini left. I've this "V" on my chest now, not very appealing paired with tube or spaghetti straps.

I got swept off my feet literally at Tanah Lot [?] I was standing on these jagged rocks posing for my brother and his camera when a huge wave snuck up and knocked me flat on the rocks. Panicked as the water started pulling me back into the sea, was looking my mom straight in the face screaming as she laughed like it was the funniest thing in the world. (Which it probably is when its not happening to you.)

Grabbed at the sharp rocks with my hands and cut them, when I stood up I cut both knees, feet, palms, and also scratched my entire right thigh on the rocks. Thankfully they weren't deep and healed fast. My legs are my only asset. O.o

Photos soon. I promise. (Again.)

Did the coolest runway show ever. I love my afro and I'm never going straight!

"I'm a curse and i'm a sound,
When I open up my mouth,
There's a reason I don't win,
I don't know how to begin."
- Weekend Wars, MGMT
Running through my head. I can't wait to see them live!

PS: I want to buy a ukelele so bad. Where can I find good (cheap) ones?

Dull.

Detachment is like detoxifying.

You're supposed to maintain a pure vegetarian diet but then the lack of meat makes you mad and aggressive. (I don't know about you guys, but I get pretty scary when I'm off meat for too long.) I get frustrated and I get angry. So then you binge. And you get even more upset.

I had a scare. I saw a photo of a dog on the newspapers that was abandoned that looked like Angel; called and called and it turned out it wasn't Angel after all. I don't think I can take much more of this. I want my dog back...

Its turned into this dull ache. Like you're not sad enough to cry but you're sad. Maybe people don't get it because...

I've been with Angel for 10 years. She's been my best friend from the start. Dogs are the stupidest creatures on earth, they're desperate and all they want to do is please you. All they do all day is wait for you to come out and play with them, some days you don't cause you're busy. But they wait.

Once when I was 12, I was at the park with my cousins when I fell down. My knee was gashed pretty bad and my aunt had to fetch me home first. My cousins were walking back with Angel when she realized I wasn't there and she ran all the way back to the park to find me. My mom had to drive out to the park to fetch Angel back. And I just sat there thinking "Stupid dog. Don't know how to come back."

I've always dreaded Angel dying because I knew it was approaching but this is ten times worst. I don't know where she is. I don't know whether she's safe, I don't know whether someone has taken her, I don't know whether she's lost or whether she's been run over by some truck,

I don't know where she is.

PS: And I'm crying so hard I'm going to wake up tomorrow with a swollen face that will last throughout the day. Maybe I shouldn't have blogged.