Thanks Star 360 for the RAD Onitsuka Tigers and Aasics! Was so happy in the store, even had enough leftover to get everyone something! Had enough leftover to get Suzuki a pair of sneakers and Azhar and WeiWen shirts each.
Next up will be an update on my lovely loot from Princess! :D
They hit me like waves these feelings of total hopelessness and frustration at everything and everyone.
It's mostly self-induced by my need to over-think every situation. I'd like to think I can't be responsible for every pain and suffering in the world but then someone has to do something about it sometimes. We're all very good at "raising awareness" but where's the solution?
Mostly I'm angry at myself for not being able to stand up and solve everything myself. Everything and everyone is so subjective, everything is shady and everyone's a phony and every deed you do even with good intentions can turn out for the worst.
In a nutshell, there seems to be no cure and no definite person to blame for everything that goes wrong.
Stardust.
“Every atom in your body came from a star that exploded. And, the atoms in your left hand probably came from a different star than your right hand. It really is the most poetic thing I know about physics: You are all stardust. You couldn’t be here if stars hadn’t exploded, because the elements - the carbon, nitrogen, oxygen, iron, all the things that matter for evolution and for life - weren’t created at the beginning of time. They were created in the nuclear furnaces of stars, and the only way for them to get into your body is if those stars were kind enough to explode. So, forget Jesus. The stars died so that you could be here today.” - Lawrence Krauss, American Theoretical Physicist
Because what is an argument about God without pulling in some pretentious references to metaphysics?
Parents are busy living it up in Europe leaving me at home neglected. I pretty much have no qualms with being alone, I come home whenever I want, I do my chores- feed the dog, fishes, water the plants routinely. Except for food, I hate cleaning up so I don't cook and I can't eat alone so I don't eat. HAHAHAHA.(Way to fuel anorexic rumors!)
I can't hang out with people who are constantly dieting because they don't eat and I get pissed off when people don't eat with me, or when they have dietary restrictions and all I want is fried chicken. I'm pretty violent and passionate (violently passionate) about food. The only exciting part about going to college is planning where to eat after. =/
Been working since Friday, had a bad experience on Sunday. Hairdressers pinned a really heavy head piece to my head that ripped my hair out at the roots, was tearing the whole time and kept telling them it was hurting me and got scolded for not being professional in return.
I'm sorry. I know we're models and we're hired to be coat hangers but it doesn't mean we don't have feelings. I really don't mean to whine and if it was just heavy I wouldn't mind but it felt like my scalp was being ripped out, I thought I was going to go crazy.
Even today my head is throbbing. I think I'm putting off the hair shows for a while.
Friday's outfit. Love Princess Shoes. Can you believe they're a local brand?
Cropped lace shirt- Forever 21
Palazzo pants- Jaspal
Earrings- From Sabrina
Shoes- Princess Shoes
PS: I seem to be incapable of making any genuine human interaction lately. I mostly want to be left alone.
Running maniacally back to the car with WW in the dark whilst clutching my bag, iPad and iPhone with imaginary robbers at our feet.
Gwen always get exasperated when I pull them faces.
My week is separated into two parts: Mon-Fri are Uni days and Thurs - Sun are working days. Assignments are catching up as the end of the semester draws to an end but I've managed to regain some sense of control of my workload.
I'm doing this fabulous show on Sunday, it's this competition and the makeup artists all get assigned a country and the makeup, hair and costume has to go with that theme. My makeup artist got Saudi Arabia, Gwen got Egypt and Amanda got Scotland. I've haven't seen their costumes but I've seen India, Bali, Thailand, China and Iban- all really over-the-top and Victoria Secret-ish.
Time's like these I wish I could be the one designing, I'd do a great job with the costumes.
Me and the ACA girls for some runway show at One World last Sunday.
“I do my very best to please everybody, far more than they’d ever guess. I try to laugh it all off, because I don’t want to let them see my trouble." - Anne Frank
PS: I really don't appreciate when people come in to my room and clean up my stuff. Don't. Touch. My. Stuff. Seriously, I feel so completely disorientated now.
Almost foreign, I'm so used to getting 2nd place, but it came as a decent surprise. I was just very touched that my friends bothered to show up at all, it seems every time I make them come for my competitions, they cheer their hearts out only to see me come in second place.
So yeah, I did it for you guys. :)
Most. Awesome. People. In. The. World.
All the winners.
Soo, 1st runner up, me and Kenzo who is the male winner and Gwen, 2nd runner up.
My dress by Gilbert Ng, I knew I would get the orange one the moment the dresses arrived for fitting. I always get orange because I'm tanned. :P
Winning was messy, I kept wanting to go talk to my friends. But everyone kept talking to me, kept taking pictures, I had to record stuff for media, thank everybody, I panicked when they said I was going to be interviewed, my only extra clothes was my denim shorts and T-shirt and I felt so bad for my friends who were just sitting in the rain waiting for me to go over.
Then when I got back they packed up the tent that we were changing in and my stuff was all over the place. I couldn't find my flip-flops and I lost my favorite waist belt. It cost only RM20 but it was a good belt.
My parents showed up but I only managed to take one photo with them. :(
But yeah, I want to thank everyone from the bottom of my heart- my mentors from the start, Benjamin Toong, Kit Leu, Amber Chia. The Amber Chia Academy Team that feels like my 2nd family, James, Shan and Swing. Wafa, Gwen and Amanda who are like my sisters. All the contestants from the competition, the most awesome two weeks spent with them. All the sponsors and designers who made us look fantastic, Kimarie, Gilbert, DC Comic Apparel, Princess Shoes, Sense and Style. The organizers Amaze Events, Patrick, Tina and Jaclyn. All the photographers, all my friends and parents. I'd be rambling for years...
Suki was a dear and helped me record the evening gown catwalk, I'm the third girl- orange dress.
“I dream. Sometimes I think that's the only right thing to do.” -Sputnik Sweetheart, I'm in a Murakami phase now.
PS: You can read one of the interviews here. But don't ask me why the grammar came out so badly, I'd like to think I was speaking normally.
